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Another poem I wrote that's begging for criticism

"She/He"

There stands before me a stranger
He hands me something and says
"Don't forget to tell her"
I wonder who this girl is
Then suddenly I realize I can't whisper
And I've been shouting my thoughts to a crowd
On their faces it's obvious they know
But I keep thinking "Why am I so fucking loud?"
What is it they know and why won't they tell
I beg them to say what's on their mind
Maybe they can tell me who this girl is
Too late I realize, we're all blind
I wonder
If maybe
She
Is Me

Or He
Perhaps
She
Is You

Emotion, it's what makes us who we are. Yet, so many people hide their emotions just to avoid the pain that comes with living. Trust me, pain is necessary to truly experience life for all it is. I know I haven't experienced the same pain that some of you have, we all experience different pain and I've certainly had my fair share. So believe me when I say, pain is what makes life worthwhile. I know what you're thinking, what the fuck is he saying?! Is he crazy?! No, imagine heat without cold, light without dark, love without hate. Pretty hard, right? Wrong, it's impossible. I hate to sound cliche, but we learn from our mistakes, and those of you that go through your young life protected and not feeling emotions or expressing yourself or getting hurt will never appreciate life like the rest of us. Sure, you can learn when you get older, but your eyes will never open soon enough for you to truly experience life. You have to put yourself out in the line of fire, take a bullet or two, or three, or a million. And they may all feel like a "Bullet In The Head", but you can always pick yourself up after you get kicked down. "Fall down seven times, get up eight" -old chinese saying (Yes it actually is an old chinese saying...I think). And trust me, there's not much that will knock you down in your young life that you won't be able to pick yourself back up from, sure you may need help sometimes, but you also have to learn to stand on your own two feet. That being said, never be afraid of recieving help, never turn it down, just because you're afraid of opening up and being seen for who you really are. There's no greater feeling in the world than opening yourself to someone and being accepted. Sure, there's a chance that you could be rejecetd, turned down, kicked away, even after they accept you, but that's just one more bullet, one more lesson. Don't let it tear you down. I will admit right now alot of shit has happened in my life that has torn me apart, and some people that get close enough can tell, but for the most part it's only made me stronger. Unfortunately there will always be scars, and sometimes the things you do because of the pain those scars cause, or even the scars themselves, can scare away those people you let close to you, but it's all a part of life. You just have to learn to heal, because time doesn't heal anything. That is one thing that people always tell me when I'm hurt that pisses the hell out of me. It's not time that heals, but what happens in that time. You have to make an attempt, you have to go out and find your cure. Sometimes all you want to do is sit around and cry, and that's fine for a while, but you can heal almost any wound with the right cure.

Getting back to Emotion. It can be one of the most confusing things to figure out what your emotions mean, almost as confusing as figuring out what another person is truly feeling. I know this first-hand, I've cried my heart out in public before, soaked a floor and my hands with tears, then just 30 minutes later I was having the time of my life and as crazy as I could be. Amazing what good friends and just being yourself can do. But never ever resist emotion, and if you don't know what it is to feel emotion, to show emotion, go out and try your best. I find it really sad that some people live most of their life as if it were all about goals and school and being succesful. It's not. Yeah, sure, go after that job, that dream job, that career you've always wanted, make it your top priority. Dedicate yourself to your schoolwork. But I guarantee,10, 20, 30 years from now, I'll be much happier than you. I may not be as rich, as well known, or as succesful as you, but I will be happier. Sure, a job can make you happy, being rich and maybe even famous can bring a certain amount of happiness, but if you lose that job, that money, that fame (which is certain to happen) you will lose your happiness. I on the other hand will need no such thing to make myself happy. Well, that's kind of a lie. I will need people I am close to, but there will always be those people in my life, whether they're the same ones I am close to now or a completely different group of people. Material things can only bring so much happiness. I'm not saying you shouldn't have goals and you shouldn't go for them, but be careful what you are willing to give up, or to miss out on, to never experience, in order to reach those goals.

Emotion, it's what makes us who we are. And I will never stop opening myself up to people, no matter how many times I am rejected. It is so worth it. The pain goes away, but when someone really accepts you, you never forget what that felt like. Long after they aren't your friend anymore, or they don't talk to you anymore, you remember that bond. Just don't let those bonds hold you down.

Tell someone your deepest secret, cry on someone's shoulder, comfort a friend, smile at a stranger, pour out your heart to someone, and when someone pours out their heart to you....listen. And above all else, Love. Love someone special like they are your world. Love your close friends like they are your family. But don't Love just anyone. Love them for who they are, not what they do, or what you have gone through together. Those things can make Love stronger, but they are not reasons to Love someone. Those of you that know me know that I am two things at heart, two titles that will forever be apart of "Who I Am". I am 1) A Rebel, and 2) A Hopeless Romantic, but not just in dealing with Love, I have to say I have a pretty "Romantic" view about how the world should be. I mean, seriously, "What's So Funny 'Bout Peace, Love, and Understanding"?

And This is your Hoplessly Romantic Rebel saying "Shine On" and Goodbye